momo is dying away at home and i'm at work.

It's so heartwrenching to see her withering away... when i can't do anything to lessen her sufferings.

"The death of a pet means the loss of a non-judgmental love source. There is no longer anything for the pet owner to nurture and care for."

ZOMBIE for Mon-Mid Fri, Human for Bottom mid Fri-Sun Night

ZOMBIE for mon-mid fri, human for mid fri-sun night

life is such a routine. wake up at 7, bath till 730, get outta house by 740, reach the interchage by 755, hop on the bus... sleep for an hour, buy my breakfast. Da-duh, jus nice, reach office at exactly 9 or earlier. Work ..... (occassionally surf...) till 1230 for an hour lunch.. work again....... knockoff time - 6pm! well.. nobody is leaving yet... a sense of guilt grows in me if i leave earlier than these bunch of pioneers. yea weak ain't it?

My only gratification @ work is the music resides in my harddisk (thank god for bit torrent), and my msn messager to connect to the outside world, in which i don't have to talk business with! but hell. boss has restricted our msn to only put our decent official names (on our appointment letter), followed by whatever rubbish u wish to put behind. well.... I couldn't even write a complaint there. (stupid me, I should have used another account for this.)

Lately i've been thinkin if this is the life i want. I've not been enjoying the stuffs that i'm doing lately (I'm still wondering why), imagine... this endless cycles would happens for like another 20 years if i'm lucky. Work for money to travel...and for a certain level of luxery...

I don't want to work to make money... i want to enjoy work, haha of cuz with abit of income to be realistic... but sometimes it's tough to balance both. When u enjoy your work, most probably you will not have the luck to get a fat pay cheque.

So what now ? work for money or work to enjoy? It's tough for me to choose...

Another monday, another week of unbearable work. =X what's life? Cycles of neverending work, and long awaiting weekends. Wish i could find some work in which i truly enjoy....

oh my gawd, we've got some boring boring blog huh, even the layout(i mean mine!) is boring, and we can't write! grrr... that's all for today!

今天只是礼拜二！！！

好闷啊！！！ 真的不想做工。。。天啊， 救救我吧！！！ 我的心好像不在这儿。。。

i'm so sleepy here after lunch! Now slowly warming up engine... to work...... listening to de-phazz.... dazing....

why did all the work start to come in only after i've tender my resignation? nab*y!

Moi Current Situation
 
Yeah i've just submitted my resignation letter, felt so relieved to get away from this place. I could say this is the worst working place that i've ever been to. Most prolly it's due the reason that i was brought in by the previous manager that they bear some grudges against me. Oh well, this is just not my place, and a lesson learnt.

My last day would be 20/21 Aug, and would b startin on my new job on the 25th Aug. A 6 months contract job, whether or not i'll b turned to perm shall rely on my performance. So i gotta work real hard in these 6 months, and hope everything goes well, with my weekends untouched! 

Moi Feeling after tendering

Guan wo pi shi le!!!
- I don't have any dealings with any of those mean fussy people ever again :)
- Watever happened here, and whatever apps that i've developed aren't mine anymore. FREEDOM!!!
- No more changing of stupid grammatical/spelling mistakes on those stupid web portals!!
- hee yay!!! and finally.........
- No more responsibilities, no more gossips, no more backstabbings. 

My New Job

I'll be joinin my new place as a solution developer, sounds nice huh? heh i'm lookin forward to it and at the same time, feeling petrified. What happens if i am unable to cope? Nonetheless, those coffee joints out there are ever-ready to welcome me back, aren't they? so i am not in the worst case :D haha!

hello joyce welcome to my blog :)

i hate enhancements to a systems, and i've got a meeting with the fussy users later at 3pm to talkin about the enhancements over this boring system. i simply hate it.

well well i'm back, still in the process of recovering from flu.

Check this site out, http://www.wholivesnearyou.com/, it actually shows profiles of those who stay on the same block as u and around u. kinda fun huh?

dell laptops are irritatin the hell outta me! screw the bloody fans.

oh yes, did i mention that i look like now?

i'm back with some updates!

- i had a sa gua tou haircut! but i hate my curls at the end! I mayb going for a rebonding soon, we'll c how thing goes with my ever-not-enough $$$.

- i've jus learnt T-Break, heh thanks to Lex. I got a 50-cents-and-a-half big bruise on my left buttock bone :( how to rub at home!!! hahaha guess i'll just leave it to go away.

- i've just told a white lie (is that a white lie?) to avoid attending a church wedding at dunno-where-church. I seriously don't enjoy going for wedding, with so much interactions to do. i am slowly turning anti-social. I jus don't find any fun mixing with people whom i'm not comfortable with, or the frequency just isn't right, so i'm not cut out for marketing and sales!

- It's just another day where i got nothin to do. sigh

Wee~ i'm going blading @ east coast today!

1. Never give me work in the morning. Always wait until 4:00 and then bring it to me. The challenge of a deadline is refreshing.

2. If it's really a rush job, run in and interrupt me every
10 minutes to inquire how it's going. That helps. Even
better, hover behind me, and advise me at every keystroke.

3. Always leave without telling anyone where you're going. It gives me a chance to be creative when someone asks where you are.

4. If my arms are full of papers, boxes, books, or supplies, don't open the door for me. I need to learn how to function as a paraplegic and opening doors with no arms is good training in case I should ever be injured and lose all use of my limbs.

5. If you give me more than one job to do, don't tell me
which is priority. I am psychic.

6. Do your best to keep me late. I adore this office and
really have nowhere to go or anything to do. I have no life beyond work.

7. If a job I do pleases you, keep it a secret. If that gets
out, it could mean a promotion.

8. If you don't like my work, tell everyone. I like my name to be popular in conversations. I was born to be whipped.

9. If you have special instructions for a job, don't write
them down. In fact, save them until the job is almost done. No use confusing me with useful information.

10. Never introduce me to the people you're with. I have no right to know anything. In the corporate food chain, I am plankton. When you refer to them later, my shrewd deductions will identify them.

11. Be nice to me only when the job I'm doing for you could really change your life and send you straight to manager's hell.

12. Tell me all your little problems. No one else has any
and it's nice to know someone is less fortunate. I especially like the story about having to pay so many taxes on the bonus check you received for being such a good manager.

13. Wait until my yearly review and THEN tell me what my goals SHOULD have been. Give me a mediocre performance rating with a cost of living increase. I'm not here for the money anyway.

840am, feeling all so sleepy! all because of the karaoke session i had last night which finished at 3! TGIF! but hell i gotta work tomorrow! I have a family chalet on sat/sun, wondering what can I do there, esp without the companion of ciggies and liquor.

hmm jus came back from exams. had hell of a time. now back at work, life ain't any better, except with the bonus of not having to touch those books again (I HOPE!) haha. well... now it's time to hunt for a new job, or at least ponder on what i'would like to do with that piece of paper that's comin my way soon (X fingers). Been smoking too much, time for some healthy stuffs! Having watched Troy yesterday after my last paper, brad pitt certainly has a nice bod!

Movies to watch!
1. harry potter: prisoner of azkaban
2. Day after tomorrow

the stick of ciggarette seems to take forever to finish.
time passes by slowly.

I am a procrastinator....

Keep putting work off until the eleventh (or twelfth) hour? Here's a few reasons why you might be procrastinating, and a checklist to help you stop. Plus, corporate dishonesty or office politics-which bugs you more?

Mar 22 2004
By Anne Fisher
Fortune.com

Dear Annie:
I just had my annual evaluation and, while it was generally very good, my boss made special note of something I know is a weakness: I tend to procrastinate. So far, I've never actually missed a deadline on any of my work, but there is less and less "wiggle time" with every assignment, so that sometimes my colleagues are forced to rush to accommodate my last-minute ways. I've been an "eleventh-hour" person all my life-usually up until dawn doing a 20-page term paper the night before it was due, in college, for example-but I can see I need to focus on changing this now. Where do I start?
Tick Tock

Dear Tock:
A man after my own heart! After all, why do at a leisurely pace today what you can rush through tomorrow, right? The causes of procrastination are legion. Some people work best under pressure (or think they do: nothing like that ol' adrenaline rush of fear to get things rolling). Others put off only the tasks they really dislike, and if you're faced with enough of those during the average day, it may be a sign you need to change jobs. Still others of us suffer from a deep-seated fear of success, and all that comes with it, so putting stuff off becomes a means of self-sabotage. Of course, I have no idea what's driving your eleventh-hour habit, but I did come across a checklist for making new habits that may help. I have this list (in bold type, below) taped to my computer; it's condensed from Time Power: A Proven System for Getting More Done in Less Time Than You Ever Thought Possible (Amacom, $24.95), by time-management expert Brian Tracy. See if it rings any bells with you:

Select one task where procrastination is holding you back, and resolve to start and finish that one project. Most of us are pulled in so many directions at once, it's easy to put off one thing-no matter how urgent-until you've taken care of something else, and then one more thing, and then that over there.... Stop!

Make a detailed list of everything you will have to do to complete that one project. Think on paper. One thing that works for me-simple, but effective-is to make a to-do list with little boxes on each item and check the boxes as I go.

Choose the single most important item on the list and do it first. Good idea! As the saying goes, "Well begun is half done."

Set a specific time when you are going to begin. Makes sense, doesn't it? Write it in your datebook (or Palm Pilot, or what have you) as if it were the most important appointment of the day-because it is.

Refuse to make excuses or rationalize putting off what you need to do. Ah, excuses. Funny, isn't it, how impatient we are with other people's-and how tolerant (nay, indulgent) of our own?

Visualize yourself working with a sense of urgency. Program your mind by repeating the words "Do it now!" over and over. Another thing I find always helps, speaking of visualization: Picture yourself having finished this task, and how great you'll feel when it's not hanging over your head anymore.

Readers, what say you? Ever had to get that procrastination monkey off your back? What worked for you? Write and tell all. This is so widespread a bugaboo, I'd bet you have some great suggestions, and I'll include them in a future column.

Meanwhile, I got a letter the other day from a longtime college professor about to take the plunge into a corporate job who is concerned-thanks to all the recent scandals (Martha, say it ain't so!)-that ethics in the business world have sunk into an intolerable pit. This reminded me about a survey Watson Wyatt did a couple of months ago revealing that 72% of U.S. employees believe the people around and above them behave "with honesty and integrity" in financial matters, and in dealings with clients and investors. When it comes to overall ethics, though, the picture gets cloudy: "Hypocrisy and favoritism"-in other words, rotten office politics-was the No. 1 reason cited by workers who had lost respect for their employers.

well... just played something creepy on the web, saying that I will die on
Thursday April 13, 2073, at age of 93 in a Nursing Home, due to a Heart disease. JESUS.

http://www.day4death.com/

Autopsy Anyone?

There are a few common questions that I get asked when I tell people that I am interning in the morgue. The first most common question is: "What is the most disgusting/gruesome/grossest/etc. thing that you have seen?" Another common question is: "Doesn't it make you sad or depressed seeing all those dead people?" With that question people like to toss around the words "innocent" and "tragedy." Another very common question I get asked is: "Do you ever lose your appetite? or Do you ever feel like throwing up?" I think I will address this third question because its fun to relate food and pathology.

The only problem I had with food was with my first bad decomp case. The smell stuck with me all day and I could taste it in my mouth. The only thing I could eat was some white rice (actually white rice kind of looks like maggots... yum), but that was hard because everything tasted like decomp. After that one time I have had no problems with food. Yes, human muscle does look like a type of steak and liver looks like the liver you would buy in the grocery store (thats just plain disgusting) and when it is cut up, it looks like cubed pieces of beef you would use in a stew or shish kabob. The aorta looks like a piece of pasta when it is opened and cleaned off. Postmortem blood clots look like grape jelly. Decomposing brain looks and has the texture of cake batter. And then there is the fun of actually fishing through the gastric contents (in other words, vomit). You can find all sorts of goodies by fishing through the contents of the stomach. It is sometimes a fun game to try and guess what the decedent's last meal was. And don't even get me started on the many different types of bowel contents (poopey, for all you refined folks out there). Let me just say that you know when a person had Mexican food before he or she died. So, I have no problem with loss of appetite. I even eat my lunch in the morgue with bodies that are being autopsied in front of me (shhh, don't tell OSHA. They don't want us eating in the autopsy room.). As I have said, it is the talent of pathologists and morgue personnel to be able to describe everything in terms of food (actually a lot of doctors do this in medical school) and still be able to enjoy those foods.

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Now how's that?

Are u feeling bored now?
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I'm feeling quite happy with myself now. Just finished revamping my blog from that boring look! look at those banners on the right hand bottom corner!!! :(

Time for lunch! Cya!

gosh. jus finish god damn 2 long questions of my assignments... off to bed now! nitey!

zzzzzzzzzzzzz......ZZzz......

I saw this book on some top charter, and the title somehow capture my attention. I went to popular wanted to get it, but it was sold out. Reserved my copy, and bought it after a few days, finished it in 2 days, now in the hands of eloise.


"The five people you meet in heaven" by Mitch Albom is a fabulous story about the purpose of life. Basically you die and when you do you meet 5 people who helped to shape your life in some way and they help you understand your life, answer the questions you had about your life, and help you to achieve peace. The story is very well told and since I don't want to give away anything about the book, I suggest having a box of tissue nearby because the book will make you cry if you have a soul (nope i didn't cry :P). The book attempts to teach us what is important in life through these lessons. All together I think it is a good book to read. Not to mention short...

Am now thinking about reading Tuesdays with Morrie next.

(Disclaimer: that silly image of the previous entry wasn't done by me k)

My new comics blog coming out soon!!! watch out on this space :)

(i'm afraid that would be a long time later..... )

Hmm, i'm trying out an account with http://www.20six.co.uk, seems like the site is down? Could my network administrator ban the site? hmm...

Another blue tuesday, trying to finish all the shit so as to concentrate on my assignments.

Got a feeling that this year is gonna be hella shit for everything.

i am getting a depression soon.