i am here, expecting my payday to come... and soon i'll be flyin off to bangkok.
i'll be spendin this year's xmas at bangkok.
Thursday, December 11, 2003
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Monday, December 01, 2003
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Antiques are something that foreigners constantly seek out in Thailand. I have discovered that very often, Thai people absolutely do not want to possess objects that belong to a deceased person for fear of having the previous owner's ghost attached to the object. "Oh! Look at that beautiful desk! It would look wonderful in my living room!" my friend exclaimed at an antique shop to her Thai companion. "I would never buy that," he answered. "I would think of the person who had to work at that desk everyday. I would wonder if they were happy then and if they are happy now."
Monday, November 03, 2003
Friday, October 31, 2003
Thursday, October 30, 2003
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Monday, October 27, 2003
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
Thursday, October 16, 2003
Procrastination: I am a procrastinator.
Things are sure coming to the surface lately. It seems that issues we have managed to avoid for years are now rearing their heads to be faced. Our way of dealing with reality, or in some cases of avoiding dealing with reality, come back to haunt us.
Procrastination has been a biggie for me. My most common procrastination �case� has been the avoidance of situations that I didn�t consciously know how to resolve. Rather than face the problem, go within, and find a solution, I have, like the ostrich, stuck my head in the sand. In instances when it involved telling someone something I felt they would not like to hear, I put it off to avoid what I feared would be an unpleasant confrontation. I have procrastinated until either the situation was in the past and forgotten (I hoped) or, more likely, until it came to a head, exploded, and could not be put off any longer. In other cases, the task at hand seemed so boring or unpleasant, that I delayed taking action and let it pile up. (i.e. filing, washing dishes, cleaning up, doing laundry, etc.)
Unfortunately, I have found that procrastination does not make the situation easier, as I hoped it might have. On the contrary, when we delay dealing with something, whether it is something as material as filing, or something as intangible as �unresolved situations� between people, time only serves to compound the error.
In most of the situations that have reached crisis proportions, I had delayed communication on specific issues because my personality self did not want to be in an uncomfortable situation. Yet what might have started as a small problem can boil up to a major confrontation because it was not dealt with at the beginning. The wound festers and eventually must be dealt with.
So again, it becomes obvious that procrastination does not serve at all. We need to face the issues that come up in our lives as they come up. If we avoid dealing with them, the universe will simply keep bringing up the same or similar situations, each time a little bit more intensely, until we face whatever it is we need to face.
In order to uproot this habit, we need to take a closer look at its cause. After all, procrastination is only a symptom or manifestation of something else. What then is the root cause of procrastination? As I sift through the occurrences where I have postponed what I could have dealt with right then, I see that though the justifications (excuses) are numerous, the cause is one.
I find that procrastination has to do with believing that I do not know how to deal with something or someone. Yet that boils down to lack of trust in myself, and lack of trust in my Higher Self and the Higher Self of others. When we trust completely in a Higher Power, we are aware that we can always harmoniously work out situations that come up to our awareness. We can tap in to our inner power and the right path will be revealed. We can choose to put away doubt and fear, and walk hand in hand with our Higher Self, the inner teacher, and the Universal Power. The guidance is always there, the inner voice of truth is always whispering to us and showing us the direction to take.
When we silence the confusing voices of fear, justification, procrastination, judgment, and anger, whether outer or inner directed, we can hear Higher Self leading us to a path of joy, love, and peace. Trusting, acting, and speaking with love and trust in the Ultimate Good will bring us peace within and with our neighbors.
If a situation is present in your life, you have the inner resources to resolve it. You can choose to look forward to finding what messages and wisdom these situations and people are bringing you, or you can procrastinate. Delaying looking at them only delays the discovery of the gift they bring.
Things are sure coming to the surface lately. It seems that issues we have managed to avoid for years are now rearing their heads to be faced. Our way of dealing with reality, or in some cases of avoiding dealing with reality, come back to haunt us.
Procrastination has been a biggie for me. My most common procrastination �case� has been the avoidance of situations that I didn�t consciously know how to resolve. Rather than face the problem, go within, and find a solution, I have, like the ostrich, stuck my head in the sand. In instances when it involved telling someone something I felt they would not like to hear, I put it off to avoid what I feared would be an unpleasant confrontation. I have procrastinated until either the situation was in the past and forgotten (I hoped) or, more likely, until it came to a head, exploded, and could not be put off any longer. In other cases, the task at hand seemed so boring or unpleasant, that I delayed taking action and let it pile up. (i.e. filing, washing dishes, cleaning up, doing laundry, etc.)
Unfortunately, I have found that procrastination does not make the situation easier, as I hoped it might have. On the contrary, when we delay dealing with something, whether it is something as material as filing, or something as intangible as �unresolved situations� between people, time only serves to compound the error.
In most of the situations that have reached crisis proportions, I had delayed communication on specific issues because my personality self did not want to be in an uncomfortable situation. Yet what might have started as a small problem can boil up to a major confrontation because it was not dealt with at the beginning. The wound festers and eventually must be dealt with.
So again, it becomes obvious that procrastination does not serve at all. We need to face the issues that come up in our lives as they come up. If we avoid dealing with them, the universe will simply keep bringing up the same or similar situations, each time a little bit more intensely, until we face whatever it is we need to face.
In order to uproot this habit, we need to take a closer look at its cause. After all, procrastination is only a symptom or manifestation of something else. What then is the root cause of procrastination? As I sift through the occurrences where I have postponed what I could have dealt with right then, I see that though the justifications (excuses) are numerous, the cause is one.
I find that procrastination has to do with believing that I do not know how to deal with something or someone. Yet that boils down to lack of trust in myself, and lack of trust in my Higher Self and the Higher Self of others. When we trust completely in a Higher Power, we are aware that we can always harmoniously work out situations that come up to our awareness. We can tap in to our inner power and the right path will be revealed. We can choose to put away doubt and fear, and walk hand in hand with our Higher Self, the inner teacher, and the Universal Power. The guidance is always there, the inner voice of truth is always whispering to us and showing us the direction to take.
When we silence the confusing voices of fear, justification, procrastination, judgment, and anger, whether outer or inner directed, we can hear Higher Self leading us to a path of joy, love, and peace. Trusting, acting, and speaking with love and trust in the Ultimate Good will bring us peace within and with our neighbors.
If a situation is present in your life, you have the inner resources to resolve it. You can choose to look forward to finding what messages and wisdom these situations and people are bringing you, or you can procrastinate. Delaying looking at them only delays the discovery of the gift they bring.
Thursday, September 25, 2003
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
MIGHT BE!!!!!!!! so i MIGHT BE OUT OF JOB SOON!
boss said this MIGHT happened in NOV..
if outsourced, most probably will be outsourced to IBM and staffs of IBM have heard wind of it..
hahha dunno will kena retrenched, moved to somewhere or..... become one of the IBM staffs...
OR maybe..... its just a hoax!!! Hehe i dont feel upsad or anything... feeling kinda excited... (i'm mad.)
its time to get out of this comfort zone......
and search for a new greeny lawn.... (lookin forward to that new lawn!)
boss said this MIGHT happened in NOV..
if outsourced, most probably will be outsourced to IBM and staffs of IBM have heard wind of it..
hahha dunno will kena retrenched, moved to somewhere or..... become one of the IBM staffs...
OR maybe..... its just a hoax!!! Hehe i dont feel upsad or anything... feeling kinda excited... (i'm mad.)
its time to get out of this comfort zone......
and search for a new greeny lawn.... (lookin forward to that new lawn!)
Friday, September 19, 2003
Thursday, September 18, 2003
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